Movie Night & Fashion Design

Hey guys~
I had such a few busy/sleepless days these week XD Wednesday the sequel of the Hungergames would be released and I made a promise with my twinsister that we would see it on the night of the premier. I didn’t expect it to be showed at midnight but we still went as hardcore fans. Our cinema organised some special Hunger Games Night, which meant they first showed the first one and then on midnight the second after it. I was originally going with only my twinsister but she told one of her former housemates that we would see it that night. She was excited as hell and asked if she could go with us. I knew her a little and she turned out to be really nice. Due to a miscommunication we were worried she couldn’t sit next to us because we ordered a chair on the other side of the room. But we switched some seats and she was able to sit beside us.
That morning I was absolutely tired ofcourse but it was totally worth it!! I thought the movie was amazing and just as great as the previous one. There were a lot of dissapointed people, but they didn’t even read the books so they didn’t know what to expect probably. As a big fan of the books I was still amazed and liked it a lot.
School was such a hell, nothing went well. I totally learned I should never ever think: ‘well it can’t get any worse now’. Because, yes it can.
In the afternoon I went to visit Ikea with my mother to shop some new furniture for my new apartment. Stupid me forgot her wallet so I still have to pay her back XD And I was extremely hungry and nauseous because I didn't even eat anything much. So asked her to buy me food( I totally felt like a 8-year old but that was kinda fun :p )After the lunch-stop we looked around for furniture I immediately saw something that was perfect as a housewarming gift for my twinsister (she got me some scented candles and I didn't even give her anything yet). And I saw such a cheap table it was only 30€. A while later I saw the most perfect chair to go with it. It had such a great mori-kei feel and I just couldn't stop screaming how gorgeous it was. There were even pretty pillows that you could put on top of it. I was soooo in love. I also bought a lot of organisers like boxes. The room is very small so it would definitely help if I can put a lot of my stuff under my bed. I still have to get my bookshelf. My mother is still going to come there again soon with my twinsister so she will bring it along then.
If all this isn’t enough stress, I also had an appointment for my new study. I decided to stop with High School and already start my study as a fashion designer. In the Netherlands you have different kind of study greeds (don’t know how this works in other countries tho) and I am now going to do something lower than I can do if I score well for my High School exams. But I am going on with studying till finish the highest greed (the one I was planning to do after my exams) So it’s another way but this way I don’t have to take my exams. And they said it would be easier to get into the school I wanted to go, since they have a lot of qualifications and it will probably be more stressful.
I will keep you guys updated about the moving and the study.
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Running Man Meeting

Yesterday I had an amazing K-Pop meeting. I met such a lot of new people and one of my best friends came too. I was so excited to see her again after such a long while (well maybe just 2 months or so) We played some games like Running Man (Korean variety show) has. But we got a lot of nagging from security guards even though we were very careful not to disturb others. It spoiled the fun very much. Even when we were just sitting down in the mall we had to leave because we were apparently violating rules. And we couldn't even read those rules somewhere so they just made something up.

We had such a great time that even after the games we still did everything to be together even longer. We ate meals together and even visited Starbucks. And even though I have to be extremely careful with my money because of buying new things for my new home I couldn't resist buying some green tea.

The train was really quite on my way back, I was home a bit late and felt crappy with waking up. But I had an amazing time.

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Great Weekend Already

Hey Guys~
Yesterday I've been to the town I grew up in. So nostalgic <3 it's such a cute city. I went there to pick up my developed pictures but what a shock!! They charged me 28€ for two films. They printed all my pictures and they won't even give me a CD I don't even know what this bullshit is but it's soo expensive ;__;
After my shopping (did such a lot of shopping this week really abnormal) I got to a cafe and bought myself some hot chocolate. So good to buy hot drinks in the winter and enjoy them while listening to good ballads. In one day I met a cousin and a girl I didn't see for like 5 years again. It was so good to be able to talk to them again.

Today travelling wasn't so relaxing. I still wanted to do a lot of stuff like going to the zoo, or even to the market to buy some cheap fruits and stuff. But the trains weren't even riding. It would take me hours to even get to Amsterdam and from there I would still have to take a metro. So I couldn't go to the zoo again this weekend. But I had to be in my hometown very early again So I just decided to give up and travel back to be on time. I met up with one of my best friends and my twinsister and her best friend (who's a guy) but he was like really sick and close to dying these past few weeks. So I was incredibly happy to see him ofcourse. I spent for 130€ on books ;___; but now I have probably all the English classics ever made. I still have to count the total of books. I had so much fun and I even traveled back with my friend so I could still chat some more with her on the train. On the way back I read the Hunchback of the Notre Dame. I didn't even have music with me (soo stupid) but it was very quiet so it didn't matter after all.

Tomorrow I have a special 'Running Man Meeting' as in the one of the korean variety show. It's gonna be so much fun and I'll keep you updated!!

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Continuing my previous post

This weekend was totally crazy. We went to the airport to welcome the Exo leaders for the AMA's that were held in the Netherlands this year. But it was such a disappointment due to Jessica's or Tifanny's accident (one of the SNSD member's) they didn't let us see them. We waited for like 24 hours if it wasn't more. We didn't even sleep and we were already broken before they even arrived. The people working at the airport had been lying to us for the whole weekend already and we were already sick and tired of all their excuses saying they would arrive with the next plane. But the took some exit we couldn't reach so nobody got to see them. And exotics are pretty dangerous I am never ever going to meet with them again. They are so aggressive. My friend even had to take medicine and see a doctor because of all the pushing people behind her did.

Today I went to some kind of book event. There was just a big hall full of books and you could just fill a cart and check your books out if you were done shopping. Just like a giant bookstore with very cheap books. All the English literature books were only 2€ instead of the usual 10€. And on top of that they weren't used, even though I love second-hand books more because of the smell (yes i'm weird like that) but considering that it is really close to free. I bought like 20 books already for 42.50€ and this Saturday I'm visiting again with a friend which is good since I still saw a lot of books I wanted to buy but I was afraid I couldn't carry that much home.

Lately I've been so chaotic, I've been losing everything. Even important things as keys are gone for a few hours. It is so bad I just want the moving to be over very quickly. It is so frustrating to live at two places at once since you can't keep a track of what is where. I hope to move at the end of the month since I'll be getting my furniture on the 20th. I am so excited and I will definitely upload photos when it's done.

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Found A New Place

Hey Guys~
Lately I have been so busy with finding myself a new home. And I can now finally say I've got one!!
I just wanna fill you in about last weeks:

31 October:
Finally some of my messages on the site where you can search for apartments/rooms were replied. I got 3 replies in total which isn't really much. But considering I'm still a high school student and they don't want really want me in student appartments and stuff I was quite lucky. So I made an appointment with the room I was interested in the most. The owner was really nice and clear about everything. Everything was clean even though my 3 housemates would be guys.

1 November
I still made an appointment with the owner of the room I didn't really like but I still went to look around. It was a smaller room and it even had a slanted roof. He showed me another room, but it was the attic and there was a roof instead of walls and yes it was a slanted roof again. Like where the heck am I going to put my closets etc then? And he was acting a bit weird so I didn't feel really comfortable there. Even though the housemates were all female except for the landlord himself (which he didn't even mention in his ad) The owner of the other apartment called and we made an appointment for contract-signing.

2 November
I decided to postpone the signing and take a day off otherwise I would definitely have a break-down. So I went to the zoo and I didn't really feel very good so first I just sat down at the aquarium and read a book. I visited the planetarium too but it made me kind of dizzy but it was still fun. Later I felt better and wandered around to make pictures. It was soo pretty I definitely recommend going to the zoo in autumn. Especially Artis it has such a beautiful scenery and it autumn it's even prettier.

3 November
I slept a really long time but afterwards I went to some second-hand market. It was so big. You had the pay 4€ so I was kind of hesitant to go but it turned out to be worth it. I have 5 new analogue cameras now and they are so beautiful. Turned out I had less money in my pockets then I wanted to spend. Such beautiful camera's there!!! The contract-signing went well and I got my keys :D

5 November
Someone who is currently living with me helped me with moving the stuff that was still at my parent's house. It was such a lot. I kind of abandoned all of my furniture except for my bed. And all the rest of the stuff was in boxes. Turns out I really have a lot. So I spend a few days sorting it all out and 25% of the stuff or even more are things I don't want anymore. I have such a hard time throwing things away, Especially clothes.

Tomorrow a post about last weekend and this week~
Sorry for neglecting you guys again <3
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Travelling Every Weekend

Heey~
Last time things aren't going great. But you probably noticed my absence.
I have the biggest trouble finding an apartment. And everything else in my life fails and i'm just depressed.

I had a week vacation but sadly it's almost over. This Saturday I went to an exhibition about Van Gogh. They promised a lot, they would've reconstructed his paintings with the original colors and show the new painting. But it was totally disappointing since I couldn't even see the differences between the paintings and the reconstructions. And on top of that they didn't even show the real painting of Sunset at Montmajaour.
But I got to return a few items I bought at Primark since that date was the last day I could still return it and get my money back. So I bought a lot of new stockings (my new fetish) and spend a lot again. Even though I still have to return a lot of those clothes again. I also visited the market since my favorite bag broke. I didn't find a new one but I found out I could still repair the old one.

I also went to chinatown, I searched for Kimchi since it's my absolute favourite food. I really couldn't find anything and I was also starting to get hungry. It is so tormenting to walk through asian supermarkets when you're hungry. And I can't even cook my own food yet. Still I spend a lot of money there, I came across this ubercute shop which sells Hello Kitty, Totoro and Studio Ghibli things and even more. So I bought something you can put your eggs in and then you get a Hello Kitty shaped egg. I hope it will work out XD

Next week I get an Ov-card (it's an card which is used for travelling) that I can use limitless in the weekends. I spend a bit on it since it wasn't free (students get a free one but i'm not a student yet which sucks) To make this all much better I even subscribed at my favorite zoo. They even have a planetarium!! It was a bit more expensive than the other zoo's but I like this one the best. Even when there are a lot of people it's not uncomfortable to be there. My favorite place is absolutely the aquarium, the kids who come there are so cute~ I can sit there for hours. It would be soo good to be gone from home even if it's just the weekends.

But I'll definitely keep you guys more updated now I can do more beside just sleeping and eating haha.

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Jay.... Park

My week was very chaotic again. 

But I saw Jay FUCKING Park. 

Yes he was in the netherlands.

I already heard of some group that had plans to go to the airport and welcome him. I live on the other side of the country so at first I didn't wanna go. A train ticket would cost 40€ for me. But I figured I would regret it forever if I would let this slide. So I checked how much was in my bank account. Turned out I still had a whole lot of money so I just got on the train not caring about anything. I even shopped a little bit and got myself some new clothes.

I was practically the first to be at the airport from the group who suggested to meet there. But there was a little disappointment since the site suddenly said Jay would arrive at another time and we could better go home. When I lost more and more hope a few security guards showed up. At first I was a little bit stressed out since I wondered if they would send us away for being too loud. We waited like forever but finally he was there. All the fangirls went totally crazy. At first I tried to follow Jay Park but everything was so crazy I kind of lost him, but I stood like 30 cm beside him. But then his supporting act Victor came and I just ran to them. They were also very cool. Jay was a bit ill so he wasn't smiling very much (like: not) But I shook hands with someone from Victor (my bias ofc) and now I am a bit in love kekekeke~

The travel to home was a disaster. All the trains were suddenly cancelled and when I came halfway I just couldn't go any further. Luckily I traveled with my friend and she invited me over. We had a lot of fun, only a pity I still had to go to school today. But yeah good excuse for missing PE class right? Haha. 

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Rainy Days

Hey guys~
Yesterday was once a productive day for me. I cleaned my room. It was such hard work since I didn't do it in a long while. My floor was all dirty and my sink was even clogged. Apparently too many of my long hairs got into the drain and the water wouldn't even flow down properly. So I had a very hard time getting all those hairs out and it was really gross. I felt so dirty and my clothes even got wet so just jumped in the shower afterwards. But now my room is clean again, even though there are already crumbs from pie and cookies everywhere again.

Today we had PE with another class, but I totally didn't like it. The kids were so active and loud and we also did a very stupid game and I decided to just sit and watch, which turned out to be a very wise decision. School was very boring and tiresome as usual. After school I called my doctor to talk about my chronic fatigue but the conversation didn't go that well but I kinda expected that. But it made me feel totally hopeless and sad. But I'll just have to bear with it.

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Going Insane~

My life is really too much drama so I'm neglecting my readers, still love you all though.
Being too tired and can'even take care of my blog properly. Vacation is over now sadly enough and there has been going on too much. Sorry for my bad English to blame on my fatigue.

I went to a museum today since it was free. It was raining all day and even though I really love rain it was very hard to find motivation to go outside. My twinsister was chilling with her boyfriend and wanted to go a second time dragging her boyfriend along. There were a lot of paintings and drawings which weren't really my taste. But at the upper floor they had a photo exhibition and it was very breathtaking. I can't remember the photographer's name anymore but he made a album cover for lady Gaga. It was a Dutch photographer but I liked his photo's a lot.

After the museum we went for dinner, I didn't really wanna eat at home since our cook (yes we have our own cook) doesn't work in the weekends and the food is most of the time very bad. So we ate pizza and it was very delicious even though I hadn't much appetite. But the ice-cream we had was soo yummy.

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Feeling Productive Today

I did a lot today. Early this morning I had a appointment with someone who always helps me with financial and other stuff (can't find a good word for it damn you english) I had a lot of trouble with paying my insurances, I definitely paid but there went something wrong so they couldn't see I paid. I was totally shocked when they told me I still needed to pay over 400 euro's. But tomorrow I hope to fix everything.

After the appointment I even ate lunch since a long time. Things aren't going very well so I eat very poorly and not even more than one meal a day in the worst cases. I had a lot of energy so I decided to visit the bank since I had to show them my ID-card because my account would be cancelled otherwise. And since I already had too much stress because of my other insurances I didn't want to let that happen too. However they weren't very quick changing my information since they were confused by the information of my twinsister. So I had to wait for half an hour. It was pretty far, so I had my daily exercise too.

I had to be home at 3 actually because my friend said she still came to pick some stuff up. I didn't make it but luckily she was later. I started cleaning my room, I put all the clothes back in the closet since they were all on the floor. After dinner I also had to help with washing the dishes and even did the laundry. I really did a lot today.

This is really a busy week for me, but most of it are just preparations for a K-Pop meeting a friend and me are organizing Thursday and Abunai, a Dutch anime convention saturday.

I'll keep you updated.

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Busy week again

Hey guys~
A week ago I had a sleepover with my boyfriend and a lot of his friends. We watched movies till 3 am, took a walk to watch some stars and tried to sleep after that. I only tried very hard but didn't succeed, but that was very expected since I had to share one airbed with my boyfriend. It was annoying as hell but later on he decided to move on the mattress he placed earlier on because it was too hot (well at least for him since I was freezing) But there was another problem since we only had one blanket. So I didn't sleep very well *obvious* But it was a very fun night and I'm glad I got to see him since he was gone for a week.

I'm busy working on a costume with my best friend since I will be going to an anime convention with her in about 3 weeks. I'm so excited since my last one was 10 months ago and I wanna see all my friends so badly. Also I'm making plans with one of my friends to go to a Korean BBQ restaurant in Amsterdam. It's one of the things I really wanna do and I really can't wait. I saw the menu and all those dishes look so good and I just wanna try everything. And even better it's also all you can eat!! But you have to pay for left-over dishes which is a pity, so I have to train my stomach a bit before going there :p

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Museum & Shopping

Saturday I had a really great day with my twinsister!! I got a lot of stress the day before but everything turned out pretty well. There was a lot of trouble with travelling and then we had to take the bus because the trains weren't riding in around the city we wanted to visit the Primark. I bought such a lot, everything was so cheap and I liked the current collection. My total was 160€ but I'm a rich bitch now so that's okay. I really needed summer clothes because my mori-wardrobe doesn't really allow me to buy summery clothes. But it's a bit too warm for sweaters now.

After that we went to The Van Gogh Museum and his paintings were absolutely wonderful. The queue was a bit less, we had to wait for an hour! I enjoyed being there even though my body wasn't really working the way I wanted it too XD so we had to stop several times to rest. We also visited American Bookcentre since we were already in Amsterdam. My sister always wanted to go there since she saw pictures and thought it was a beautiful shop. I have already been there twice so it was less fun for me. Afterwards we ofcourse ate fries and milkshake, which I love.

This morning I went up very early to get a ticket for Jay Park <3 and I got a golden row ticket which means I will be able to see Oppa very good. I really can't wait and I'm excited as hell of course.

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Unexpected sleepover

Hey~
Since the beginning of the week I have been feeling really bad again. There are so much things on my mind at the moment and it is driving me crazy. Tuesday I went to inform for renting a room and it seemed like my chances became even smaller and even more expensive. On top of that it was really hot and I really don't like extreme weather.
Wednesday my stomach aches (I get those when I'm totally stressed out) got really bad and I decided to leave the house for a moment since being here gives me even more stress. My boyfriend was seeing some friends that afternoon and dragged me along :p The girl we visited had her own pool (lucky) and it was slightly colder but still very hot. The water was so nice and even though I couldn't really swim since I still have no swimwear I really enjoyed the water. I didn't even go into the water but since everyone was having fun my clothes got soaking wet. However we were having fun for too long so I had to stay over.

Tomorrow I will do some fun things with my twinsister but I'll keep you updated <3

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Aaaargh~

Heey
Lately a lot has happened. I finally get to do stuff which would be great for blogposts actually but they exhaust me too much to find the motivation to blog about it.
People here nag a lot about me 'doing nothing all day' so I had to find a schedule which is actually making a portfolio for when I want to do a Fashion & Design study when I graduate. But I'm already busy enough and there is more pressure now which doesn't help very much.

A lot has been going wrong lately, been making a lot of stupid mistakes. Earlier this week I was over at my boyfriend's place and then I left my key there. So I had to wait for others to open the door for me which was very awkward. But luckily he had some time to bring over my key later that night, for which he had to cycle 2 hours. So after that I felt very guilty of course and treated him a milkshake and I really wanted one too (good excuse right) But because we stopped by at my old place I got to see my dog and she is still such a cutie.

I have really much negative energy around me but they said Jay Park is coming to my country. But still a little bit skeptical since they cancelled the last concert too. And I don't want to be disappointed like that again.

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Missed You Guys~!!!

Hello
I had some busy weeks and it's pretty hard to catch up with blogging when you once start to neglect it :c
So I want to give you a short (well pretty long but it will be somewhat less detailed) summary of what I was doing the past few weeks.

Since I moved I became more energetic and I feel much better lately. I was really nervous for my oral exams and it kind of broke me down. On top of that 2 weeks before that we even had a trip to Budapest with school. Schooltrips always give me lots of stress and I don't get along really well with most of the kids, in my eyes they are pretty annoying. But the city was totally amazing, I will give a more detailed report about it later with pictures since I made a lot ^o^
The week after it I had to prepare for my orals and it failed, since I had too much stress I asked my teachers if I could skip the presentation part since I've never given a good presentation and always started laughing or crying like crazy. But yeah my teachers never listen when I tell them something is way over my limit and then they just forcefully push me to do it which always goes wrong. Which was pitiful since we have a special education system which allows me to drop out of finals. My first exam was English and the person who was talking to me couldn't even speak english well and I didn't dare to say it so I couldn't even hear his questions about the books well so I just said I didn't understand. My Dutch was a disaster as expected the presentation went completely wrong and i just sat there crying till they moved to another part.

I nearly passed my Dutch which made me completely frustrated, but on the other hand I scored a 6.4 for English which was beyond my expectation since I got so many of the questions wrong. At first I was a bit mad at myself for failing Dutch and scoring so low on my best subject. But I got a white rose XD that's always nice right :p

After that my vacation began and I planned a lot of activities. I did a lot of cleaning and grocery shopping. I haven't cleaned my room since I moved here which was like a month ago. It took me the whole afternoon to clean everything and when I was done I dropped a box of cookies on the floor >__< just my luck :/

I bought some new items at H&M a few days ago and I am still looking for summer shoes. Although I probably won't find them anymore. But I bought 2 dresses and one shirt. But always forget to take pictures and stuff.

That was it for today ^o^
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Temporarily Moved

Hey sweeties~

Last week was busy as hell again. I kind of moved to this place where you can learn more about how to organize your stuff before really moving out, just a temporary place where there are a lot of people that help you. I don't know any exact terms or something. First I hated the idea of going since I still think parents who once decided to have children should stick to that decisions till the very end and not halfway give up on them just because they suddenly go to their second puberty or in fact never got out of it. I know that in everyone's life there will be a phase where one will leave their parents home and start their own life. But it's just a pity that I was practically forced to since the people I was living with just couldn't act normal. But people here are actually very friendly and nice. And they don't make a lot of noise which is great.

I can make outfit posts soon again, I have a great mirror now which is full length :p and my batteries kind of died. I think it's great that I can do my own grocery shopping now. And I actually like doing house chores, call me crazy but I think it's pretty relaxing. This weekend I felt really ill but I feel a bit better right now.

I have been watching a lot of B1A4's Hello Baby and I totally love it. It made me feel better right away. The neighborhood is really amazing, it's nearby the malls and the centrum. It's also great for walks and taking pictures.

Talk to y'all later
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Survived it and won exhaustion~

Hello~
I finished the written part of my finals now and in 2 months I still have the verbal part. I am totally exhausted but still alive XD so that's why I didn't post much. I didn't sleep very good either, which had to be essential but I just couldn't. My exhaustion was so bad I almost fell asleep when I had my last (english) exam. But it was so freaking easy we had to write an informal letter and we got text from like 3 paragraphs, are you kidding me? This week I already 'took a few days of' aka I just couldn't leave my bed since even lifting my hand was the most impossible task. I still feel freaking tired but already decided to go to school tomorrow. The thing I hate most about staying home is not wearing pretty clothes *such a materialist ain't I?*

But well can't really think of intresting thing that happened last weeks and don't wanna bore you all with how I slept (which I clearly didn't do much either) This Monday I will actually be moving to some kind of house where I will learn about living on my own and all. It is giving me really much stress and didn't even want to write about it since I would have to think about it then *aargh*. Maybe more on that later though. There is so much on my mind and didn't even had the energy to finish my sewing projects and hope everything will turn out moving etc.

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End of school and my life D:

Hello~
This vacation I haven't been posting as much as I planned too. I felt really bad with the final stress and such/ I had huge stomach aches and felt very depressed. I am so freaking scared of failing even though I can still do it again next year since I have to do the rest of my other subjects too then. I had my first test today, but something got wrong and my teachers told me I had some reading stuff but turned out I have that tomorrow and made this totally bad since I couldn't really focus well on it. But well now I know that for tomorrow, and on top of my bad luck today I also forgot all my books so after I finished I couldn't really be very productive.

But after school my aunt visited with her kids and my twinsister also came home (which we already promised) so I especially bought some sweets (or not exactly but don't know what to call it XD) We just love eating. It was fun and I felt a bit better. And I even got new shoes now. There was a sale at our local shoe-shop and the shoes I've been eyeing forever were on discount too. Although they didn't have any natural colors in my size anymore, so I had to choose between a size too small or a bright cold color. So now I have blue ones, but maybe they would even go very well with my wardrobe. They are just a bit more suited for gyaru than mori kei now, but I like them so much.

Lol I won't even try and promise whatever I'm still going to upload you'll see it yourself. No JK I will still upload my outfit from today because it's something I made myself and it is finally finished after a year.

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Jean Paul Gaultier Exhibition Rotterdam

the thing that immediately caught my attention

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